Why? What is it? Why do you dislike me so much? If I have done something to upset you, please let’s talk about it like adults. I wish I knew what the problem was…..what is it? Please tell me. I still love you with all my heart and miss you, *Claire* and I miss my precious young but growing up fast granddaughters, so much. Why won’t you talk to me anymore? We used to get on really well (I thought) up till a few years ago. I used to come and see you when you were first expecting *J*, 9 years ago and then when she was born, I’d travel down (with assistance) to see you both, bringing lunch for us all and always a surprise gift of some sort even if it were just a pair of little pink, baby socks.
A couple of years later, you had *B* and I continued to be there for you and support you. I know I was and am limited with what I can for the girls because of my disability but that wouldn’t stop me chatting or reading to them etc. It wouldn’t stop me from making a fuss of their hamsters and the kittens. It hurts so much to be away from J and B for so many years – I don’t even know what they look like anymore as you don’t allow me to see photos either.
Why, Claire….why do you choose to hurt me this way? You know how much I love you all, don’t you. I still send birthday and Christmas gifts and cards but I don’t even know if the girls receive them. Do they know how much I love them, as I do my little *S with *Tom? I don’t expect they even remember what I look like. All three of the girls have loads of contact with their other Nannies so why do you both choose to reject me? Please tell me?
I am hurting so badly. Do you realize the pain you are causing by your actions? I always loved you….when you were young and I was a single parent, after your dad left, I’d do things like make a picnic and we’d walk down to the local park to eat it and then buy ice-cream. You always chose a ‘Fab’….do you remember; because you liked the hundreds-and-thousand sprinkled over the top? *Tom would always have one of those long ice-pole ‘things’! I miss all that. I so want to be able to do those little things for my granddaughters. I am hurting, Claire but my arms will alway be open and waiting for you to return even if I have to wait till I’m old and grey. Please come back xxx ❤